I hate using the word heartbroken, because it reminds me of some sort of emo-filled teen angst song. But right now, that’s about how I feel.

Behinder has finally come clean with me. He’s sorry for leading me on and acting seductively, he says because of his “emotional idiocy”, he didn’t think what it would do to me. But yes, he’s been dating STD Nurse for eight months now, and he has no intention of changing that anytime soon.

So he not only purposefully hid this tidbit from me, but he went out of his way to tell me he was only casually dating instead of the “not casual” relationship he’s having. She’s even visited him here (they live three hours apart), and, lucky me, he decided to tell me that she “wears him out” when she visits. Tactless, yes, but I was blown away that he’d tolerate once-a-month sex, considering he’s ended relationships in the past because he didn’t get once-a-day sex.

Interestingly, he also shared that if they were not dating, its possible he’d pursue something with me again. Because there isn’t any of sort incompatibility between us; just his own dumbass mistakes.

Supposedly he’s telling STD Nurse his transgressions with me - namely, not telling her he was with me when he started fooling around with her, as well as his repeated attempts to get me to masturbate, because he “loved” getting me to that place so often. Also supposedly, STD Nurse doesn’t care, because its “not physical”.

Is anyone else buying the bullshit? I’m sure as hell not.

So I told Behinder today that he’d pulled one too many stunts with me. He leveraged both our relationship and our friendship so he could date this woman, a deceitful, manipulative “sweet” girl. I said I hoped the charade was all worth it, because he’d utterly humiliated me. He didn’t deserve my love or friendship, even though he had both, unconditionally.

If anyone has some good ‘purge-the-ex’ ideas, I’m all ears. I’ve run into Behinder now twice in two days, and it sucks. Hugely. Although it might be fun to run into him when he’s with the STD Nurse… I can think of a lot of things I’d love to tell her.